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Causeway, Through Windshield (Drwg #2) |
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Causeway, the Water on Both Sides (Drwg #3) |
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Causeway and Winter Fleet (Drwg #1) |
Unable to sleep through the night, I read more in David Hockney's
That's the way I see it. He was talking about perspective and where it puts the viewer (p. 101 ff), and how time gets incorporated or left out. This tied in with ideas in another book I'd read. Last summer June Deveau lent me her book Bonnard, by Albert Kostenevitch, in charge of the Impressionist and Nabis collections at The Hermitage in St Petersburg, Russia. In it he talks about how Bonnard's paintings of dressers with mirrors put the viewer in the middle of the painting: the viewer sees the things on the dresser in front, and at the same time sees what is going on behind via the mirror (a woman bathing).
I am not satisfied with the detailed and fairly accurate drawings I'd done this winter, especially those done at the causeway. I've learnt a huge amount from doing them; about the causeway, about various boats there, about perspective, and about how I interact with my drawings. I know they are good- enough for what they are; representational drawings, but they didn't satisfy me any more. I felt cross about drawing, not conducive to doing decent drawing. Scribble drawings help alleviate that a bit, but they're not what I want to do a lot of right now: they lack substance, the substance of subject matter I love. This is part of why I stopped drawing; I was doing too much reportage, like a news reporter. I wanted to do opinion pieces, visual opinions, visual responses to those facts.
However, I don't
perceive the causeway as I drew it, and didn't know what to do differently. I wanted to say, "See how my world looks to me!" My "just the facts ma'am" approach became boring, or at least the challenge wasn't where or what I wanted. The ideas in these two books suddenly gave me a huge AHA! in the wee hours this morning so I got out my sketchbook and drew the causeway as I
perceive it, which is not the way it looks. The way I see it when I am "loving" it is from inside my body with the causeway all around me, not set off in some rectangle apart from me on a flat piece of paper. I am inside the causeway's universe, not a disinterested bystander waiting in some line, unaware of my own presence and location. I wanted to show that; to show how it is full of curves; curving road, curvy boats, lightly loopy wires, curly frothy foam spewing up through the sluice; signs of many shapes and leaning at many angles in some sort of counterpoint to the leaning hydro poles; curvy lines emphasized by straight ones among them.
I think these drawings are a step towards letting out my response, my opinion; letting it be seen and thought about - and responded to in turn. I am happy with the direction in which they are prodding me, at least for today.